When God’s Not Getting Through

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*DISCLAIMER: I realize my last few posts have been inspired by songs. Believe it or not, that’s not on purpose – I guess I should’ve mentioned early on that I’m not only a songwriter, I’m a song fanatic. That being said – yes, this post is inspired by another of my favorite songs. Sorry, not sorry.

The first time I heard “God Speaks” by Travis Meadows, I cried. It’s not a sad song – it’s just one of those songs that is so incredibly well-written that chills just don’t capture the feeling enough so tears start to come out. Travis Meadows is one of my absolute favorite songwriters, so almost all of his songs make me cry. But this one was different. (Listen to it. As usual, the link is below. I swear to you, you will not be disappointed.)

“God Speaks” by Travis Meadows: Live Version

In case you don’t have time to listen to it right now, I’ll put the chorus here:

You can change my world, can change my mind, with just one word when you believe it. And me, I don’t know much, but I know love, and that’s enough to one who needs it. When God ain’t getting through, God speaks to me through you.

I laughed at myself for being so emotional, but I just couldn’t help it. I just thought it was the most beautiful love song I’d ever heard. I mean, isn’t that what every girl wants? For a guy to say to her, “God speaks to me through you?” I know that’s what I want my future husband to say about me. So, of course, I listened to the song a million more times and learned every word.

I forgot about it for a little while, until one night a week or so ago when I was driving home from the gym. And this time, when I heard it, I didn’t cry; I bawled. And I mean, Old Yeller, The Notebook, Sara-McLachlan-dog-commercial bawled. So hard that I had to roll up my windows and hide my face so that no one would see me and think I had just been broken up with. It just hit me so much harder that time than it had the first time. And here’s why.

When I first heard the song, I didn’t pay much attention to what Travis says before he starts playing the song: “This is a song I wrote for you.” At first, I thought, “Aww, how adorable, he wrote it for his wife, she must be in the crowd.” And that’s why I cried the first time, because I thought it was the epitome of a love song. But last week, in my car, I realized something: Travis Meadows doesn’t have a wife. In fact, one of his best songs is called “Learning How to Live Alone.” And suddenly, I realized that in the video, he is not addressing a wife when he says, “a song I wrote about you”, but rather, the audience and his friends listening to him. And the song shouted something brand new at me, something I had been needing to hear for a long time:

God does not have to speak to us in the form of a significant other.

For so long, I’ve had this subconscious mentality that I can’t be fully happy if I’m single. I’ve had this mindset that Oh, everything in my life is going great, buuuut I don’t have a boyfriend, so, it’s not as good as it could be. And that mindset has held me back from being fully happy for way too long. Now, that’s not to say that “God Speaks” isn’t still a beautiful love song – in fact, I’m putting it in my “wedding box” (kind of a Pinterest board I have in my brain where I keep a bunch of things I want to remember to include in my wedding… I’m such a girl, I know) – because that’s what a spouse is supposed to do: to speak God’s voice to you. But the fact of the matter is, I do not need a boy to hear God’s voice. God speaks to me through so many other things.

When I was little, I would hear these stories in the Bible of how God “spoke” to all these people – Noah, Moses, etc. – and a booming voice came down from the sky and the earth shook and the skies opened up. So when I heard people older than me say, “Just talk to God about it,” or, “God will tell you,” I thought that was crazy – I thought God would never speak to me, because I’m not Noah or Moses or any kind of saint. And those things would never happen to me. But now, I see that term, “God speaks”, with a whole new understanding: we can hear God’s voice in a million different ways. And I’m working on paying attention to what those are.

God speaks to me through coffee dates with my friends. God speaks to me through visits to my grandparents’ house. God speaks to me when I finish a song that I’m proud of, when someone gives me a compliment, when it snows and school gets cancelled (like today!!) God speaks to me through beautiful people like Sadie Robertson who are working to make the world better, through extra hot soy lattes with extra foam, through songs from the early 2000s that I remember every word to and can jam to with my friends in the car (Fergalicious, for instance.) And that’s not to say any of those things are God, or should be worshipped, or anything like that. But I believe that God is the goodness in the world, and God speaks to us through the good things and the good people in our lives. And if God is the good in the world, then man, He is everywhere.

And so, I guess we could call this an “interactive blog post”; I want to know how God speaks to you. You can comment, or you can keep it to yourself, or you can write it on a post-it note and put it on your mirror. I just want all of us to start noticing the many different ways that God speaks to us – the big ways and the small ways. I know God speaks to me in a million different ways.

How does God speak to you?

God loves you SO much,

Caroline

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3 thoughts on “When God’s Not Getting Through

  1. You reaching out to me and sharing your blog, and me reading this post in particular, was definitely God speaking to me. I’ve been thinking about that a lot the past week, and learning how to listen to his voice and be his voice to others. This gave me chills.

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  2. God is speaking to me today just through our newfound friendship and showing me that there is no need to be anxious about college because he is already preparing my community there through people like you Caro 🙂

    This post was so encouraging, love you sista!

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